Tina's Song (Don't Believe)

Raging winds flowed through the house like a storm 
Bouquet of bruises for my brain was the norm 

But I ask of you 
Please do not bring up 
The painful memories 
To try to prove 
That you believe 
In some real me 

Fitting in can seem so far out of reach 
Abandoned feelings are so hard to unteach 

I see that you 
Think that one should face 
The past and maybe that 
Is good to do 
Just don’t believe 
In some real me 

Daisy chains and wonder 
From childhood are asunder 
And I know 
I can't go back and change things 
Can't change the fact that there were 

Broken samples handed out for passing down 
Not much to hope for besides getting out of town 

And I'm fine if you 
Encourage me 
And be there for me 
As I work things through 
But don’t believe 
In some real me 
Yea don't believe 
In some real me

Sun Comes Up

The sun comes up 
My hopes are down 
As restlessness abounds 
Cause this isn't something rest is ever 
Gonna figure out 
And I'm desperate to figure it out 

But the days 
Go on and on 
And they always will 
And you will always be gone 
And it takes 
So long 
To come to terms 
It's hard to carry on 
You are on my mind 
I miss you 

It never will 
Be the same 
It does no good to blame 
Some days I want to go far away 
To some deserted place 
Some days I'm stuck in place 

But the days 
Go on and on 
And they always will 
And you will always be gone 
And it takes 
So long 
To come to terms 
It's hard to carry on 
You are on my mind 
I miss you 

The sun comes up 
And you come up 
In my mind again

Wall of Doubt

Breakdown 
In the car 
Tell me 
Who you are 
I want to try 
I'm reaching out 
But panic's 
Safe behind a 

Wall of doubt 
And I don't get it 
I just want to get you out 

Knockdown 
In the store 
Tell me 
What this fight is for 
I want to try 
I'm reaching out 
But reason suffers 
Behind a  

Wall of doubt 
And I don't get it 
I just want to get you out 

I see a problem 
I am here 
What should be fixed or 
Disappear 
If I can help 
Just tell me what 
To do 
I quickly see that 
I am wrong 
It's something different 
All along 
It's not 
"What can I do?" 
For helping you 

Meltdown 
In the home 
Tell me 
To just leave you alone 
Sometimes I fail 
No reaching out 
Disaster 
Hides behind a 

Wall of doubt 
I think I get it 
I just want you to break out 
And I just want you 
And I just want you 
And I just want you to break out

The Void

People everywhere 
Chatter flowing throughout the air 
I'm hiding out so safe and sound 
Twisting bottlecaps 
To the point of near collapse 
Venturing out to see who's around 

It's so hard to turn down 

Though 
I've said it many times 
This time is gonna be the last because I 
Suppose 
I'm changing now 
It'll all be in the past somehow 

But now I go into the void 
Get lost again in the void 

Swiss army girl 
One by one she does unfurl 
And I'm right there all the way 
When the spark is gone 
I search for her comrades and go on 
Browsing for a site to stay 

It's so hard to turn down 

Though 
I've said it many times 
This time is gonna be the last because I 
Suppose 
I'm changing now 
It'll all be in the past somehow 

But now I go into the void 
Get lost again in the void 

And now I'm drawing dead 
With a gun above my head as I just 
Try to fight 
From drowning in a river 
Fishhooks drifting round 
In the night 

Though 
I've said it many times 
This time is gonna be the last because I 
Suppose 
I'm changing now 
It'll all be in the past somehow 

But now I go into the void 
Get lost again in the void

Punchable Faces

Successfully dressed 
With punchable faces 
The angry chanting 
Is off to the races 
This mirage of 
Purity 
Does little to hide 
The insecurity 

Punchable faces 
Punchable faces 
Punchable faces 
Punchable faces 
Did I mention that you have 
Punchable faces 

Perhaps it's misery 
Or fear 
Or unawareness 
That’s led you all here 
The tantrum 
Rages throughout the day 
Like when small children 
Don’t get their way 

I do not condone 
Violent behavior 
I'm only stating 
A matter of opinion 
Did I mention that you have 
Punchable faces

Duffel Bag

Duffel bag sits in the corner of the room 
Suggesting an answer to your daily gloom 

Just run away and 
Don’t look back for several days 

Just throw in some things you care about the most 
You'll get new stuff when you get to the coast 

Just run away and 
Don’t look back for several weeks 
And weeks and weeks 
Just run away and 
Maybe never look back at all 

And find of bunch of new problems 
That cause you to hate your life again 
And as the misery blossoms 
Just pack up your things 
And let a new runaway begin 

Duffel bag sits in the corner of the room 
Suggesting an answer to your daily gloom 

Just run away and 
Just keep running away 
And away and away 
Just run away and 
Just keep running away

Problem

I hope you have cancer 
I hope it’s the real bad kind 
Yea that’s pretty messed up 
That’s what came to mind 
I guess I'd rather you live 
And be miserable all the time 

I hope you're abandoned 
By every single friend 
I hope you always fail 
At everything 
What I really want 
 Is to just never think of you again 

Sometimes 
It helps to fantasize 
But once the empty joy wears off 
I realize 
The problem is not with you 
The problem is with me 

I hope you get shot down 
By everyone you meet 
I hope your ex-partners 
Plot to kill you in your sleep 
But don't go through with it 
Cause you're not worth the energy 

I hope that you fall 
Down the longest flight of stairs 
I hope that you break your bones 
Everywhere 
And after suffering alone for awhile 
You die cause nobody cares 

Sometimes 
It helps to fantasize 
But once the empty joy wears off 
I realize 
The problem is not with you 
The problem is with me 
Yea the problem is not with you 
The problem is with me

I Feel Nothing

Here comes a thing, should make me happy 
It now appears I should be sad 
Somebody did something to me 
That should make me mad, oh so mad 

Now I'm told should be disgusted 
But sometimes excitement should burst through 
Here comes the feeling that I should 
Get when I'm with you 

But I feel nothing 
Nothing at all 
Nothing 
Nothing at all 
I want to be here 
But I feel 
I feel nothing 

Nightmares wake me up at night 
They seem about all I can dream 
Apparently fear is pretty much 
My only theme, my only theme 

Other than that I am detached 
Emotions floating out somewhere 
Though I'm not even sure that they 
Were ever there 

Cause I feel nothing 
Nothing at all 
Nothing 
Nothing at all 
I want to be here 
But I feel 
I feel nothing 

When I look up and see a smiling face 
I look away as if to say 
I don’t know what else to do 
My patience rarely ends but only cause 
There is blank space, nothing there 
I don’t know what else to do 

Cause I feel nothing 
Nothing at all 
Nothing 
Nothing at all 
I want to be here 
But I feel 

Yea I feel nothing 
Nothing at all 
Nothing 
Nothing at all 
I want to be here 
But I feel 

Yea I feel nothing 
Nothing at all 
Nothing 
Nothing at all 
I want to be here 
But I feel 
Yea I feel nothing

Close Your Eyes

Come and gather round 
And share your song 

Or if you prefer 
Just harvest on 

The colors swirl below the nighttime sky 
While images race past inside your mind 
When you close your eyes 

Take a deep breath in 
Blow troubles out 

And forget what they 
Were all about 

The stillness flows around you like calm waves 
While senses amplified to you amaze 
Don't you close your eyes 

Ride a shooting star 
And search for who you are 
And who you were 
And who you prefer 

Come and gather round 
And share your pain 

And your experience 
Against the grain 

The lights are sparking but what do they mean 
There are two worlds but you are in between 
Until you close your eyes 

Come and rest your bones 
It's almost time 

The lengthy journey is 
Well past its prime 

The magic beast engulfs you as you sleep 
And all your memories only you will keep 
When you close your eyes

Understood

I thought I knew 
Just what I'd want 
Then it overwhelmed me 

Disguised as a love 
Like a sign from above 

Couldn’t eat 
Couldn’t think 
Couldn’t sleep 

Trying to figure out 
How it all works 
With a mind 
That can't see 

But I did not 
Understand 
Till you understood me 

I think that you might 
Know me 
Better than I do 

I wish I could give 
The same  
Understanding to you 

I thought I knew 
What it was about 
It took control of me 

Knew nothing of love 
But feeling above 

Couldn’t eat 
Couldn’t think 
Couldn’t sleep 

So many years of not  
Really getting it 
Living 
Selfishly 

No I did not 
Understand 
Till you understood me 

No I did not 
Understand 
Till you understood me